Tattoo

I have gone back and forth and back and forth on whether or not I want to get a tattoo or not. I'm still undecided. So what I did decide on was to research it. If I were to get one I would want it on my left wrist. Don't ask me why, I don't know. I just want it there. Or my back, but like the middle part where it wouldn't be seen. Either would hurt, but if I really want it, it would be worth it. Or you know, I just don't know yet. Just somewhere where it doesn't look trashy or to visible. I'm not sure what I want to get either. Either a Jesus fish, Cross, Quote (Faith is moving without knowing), or some passage of Scripture (James 1:2-4). Mainly I would want one to remind me of struggles and how I got through them and how to overcome future ones.

Okay, Lets hear the bad news first. Well the obvious, the pain. If I were to get one on my wrist it would be shown and they could effect my job. I don't remember any of my elementary teachers having tattoos. If the equipment is not cleaned properly you can contract a blood disease from a previous user (i.e. hepatitis, or HIV). Skin infections and skin allergic reactions that can last for a year and if you get an infection you have to remove the tattoo. Now, the Biblical standpoint. We are not under Old Testament law, so Lev 19:28 doesn't really apply. BUT it still should be considered. And then I just have to ask myself, Does it please God? Is this praising God? 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (Our bodies are a temple)

The good news! If I were to get it, I wouldn't regret it. I would always like it and when I'm old I wouldn't be ashamed of it. It would be a daily reminder of my struggles and how I overcame them. It could open up some witnessing opportunities because of how popular tattoos are today. I could hide it if it wasn't on my wrist. Some tattoos don't look trashy, especially if they're thin.

Well I'm still not sure. What are your thoughts?


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My List

So, I will be home in 8 days from today. A week from tommorow. 6, 5, 4, 3, 2 and 1. The fact that I am going home so soon has honestly given me a boost of needed encouragement. SO I have decided to make a list of things I would like to accomplish while I'm home. If you would do me the honors and helping me with this list that would be amazing :)

*Spend the night with Rachael, some serious catching up
*Spend the day in athens with Rachael, Chris and Alex
*Sing at church with Mom and Esther, light the wreath and talk about BICS (Rachael attending of course :) )
*Meet Chris' parents
*Dinoland
*PICTURES
*Watch Bride Wars with Lauren, later with a trip to Davids
*Time with my Neill
*Date with Paige
*Date with Kate (hehe, it rhymes)
*Date with Jill
*Date with Chris
*Latenight talks with Alex
*Hangout with Kayla
*See Zack
*Many dates with Rachael :)
*Youth group
*Lights of the South
*A christmas party with ALL of my friends
*A seriously needed trip to: Sonic, Zaxby's, Chikfila (milkshake), Bojangles, ANYTHING SOUTHERN, etc.
*Time with my family
*Driving around
*Late night at some good old parks
*Visit Cornorstone
*An amazing christmas
*A new years party with anyone who would like to come!
*Say some see you laters and come back and finish what I started

I love you! I can't wait to see you guys!
If I'm missing anything let me know!

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And learn to trust the One who writes my days

"I Believe In Love"

How long will my prayers seem unanswered?
Is there still faith in me to reach the end?
I'm feeling doubt I'm losing faith
But giving up would cost me everything
So I'll stand in the pain and silence
And I'll speak to the dark night

I believe in the sun even when it's not shining
I believe in love even when I don't feel it
And I believe in God even when He is silent
And I, I believe

Though I can't see my stories ending
That doesn't mean the dark night has no end
It's only here that I find faith
And learn to trust the one who writes my days
So I'll stand in the pain and silence
And I'll speak to the dark night

I believe in the sun even when it's not shining
I believe in love even when I don't feel it
And I believe in God even when He is silent
And I, I believe
No dark can consume Light
No death greater than this life
We are not forgotten
Hope is found when we say
Even when He is silent

I believe in the sun even when it's not shining
I believe in love even when I don't feel it
And I believe in God even when He is silent
And I, I believe.

Dear God

Dear God,

Where to start? You know my heart already. You know my struggles. You know where this is going to lead me and what I'm going to choose, not only in a couple weeks but for the rest of my life. Its amazing to think how much You know me. You knew me when you were on the cross. It was my sin that held you there. All of my sin, and all of the sin of the ones you love. You took it on. How do I repay You? By being a stubborn girl, who doesn't trust you.

I don't understand why I am having such a hard time trusting You. To give myself completely to you, to rely totally on you. Why can't I do that? I think You're so selfish. It's all about You. YOU YOU YOU. Everything You want to the glory of You. I'm so selfish to think like that. I don't want to be glorified, I just want answers. I don't need to want, you are enough for me. More than enough. I'm so confusing. I'm confusing myself. You are obviously preparing me for something, I can feel it. Its in my heart and I can't let it go. I know You're testing me. You want to see how committed, or if I'm committed at all. This Christian walk is not fun. It's not easy. But I can't give up just because it's getting tough.

Please help me understand why this is happening and what I can do. Please help me to understand what You are doing. Please help me to be more understanding and willing to trust You, as hard, as pathetic as it is to be hard, as it is. Please help me to be more submissive to You. I mean You're only my God, My Father, My Savior who died for my sins.... Please help me to practice what I preach and listen to what I am telling other people before I expect it out of them. Please help me to make these decisions. You obviously want me here, so help me out. I can't do this on my own.

Please help me Lord, Please. I can't do this on my own.

Love,
Your daughter Morgan


If you're reading this (again, I'm not sure if I'll publish), Please be praying for me. I have some very big decisions to make coming up and it's not going to be easy.

God help me.
Please pray for me.

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