I stand in awe

I go to a school where we learn about God everyday. Theology, Old Testament, The Will of God, etc. I'm more amazed by Him everyday and what He does and allows us to do. There are things that I don't understand either. Like pre-destination and the elect. I don't understand, but He is the all powerful and knows. He is the beginning and the end. He had no beginning, it is so hard for us to try to wrap our minds around that because everything that we know has a beginning. He has no end. That concept is a bit easily for me to understand because I know that my worldly life will have an end, but my Heavenly Father will come again and I will ascend into Heaven.

I stand in awe, I am amazed by Him everyday and I believe I truly am changing. I had a meeting with the pastor here at the church and he said that its hard for you to notice a change because Im here living it everyday, but when I get home, people will notice. I hope they, you, do. I love being joyful and sharing the love I have for Him. His love, is the reason that we can love. He set the standards for love. He set the standards for everything and I want His best in everything I do. I'm so happy I've taken this opportunity to come to this school and learn about Him. Believe me, it is more then hard to be this far away from home. I would love to be home with my family and friends.

This is the first Thanksgiving that I won't be with my family back home. Don't get me wrong I'm looking forward to seeing my grandma up in Maine, I just wish I could have both. I missed cousins, my brothers and I'll miss both of my parents birthday for the first time. I've missed get togethers with my family, etc. Its so hard. I love them all very very much and want to be there. I miss my friends too, I miss hanging out everyday, staying out until 5 in the morning on the weekends, anything and everything. But going home would be the easy thing and
probably the biggest mistake of my life. Thank you again to the people who encourage me to stay when I wish to be home. The people here won't let me leave either.

Just because you're hearing or should I say reading all this doesn't mean I'm not the same Morgan you knew before I left. Yes, there might be a few things that are different, but its still me. I still listen to the same music, same personality, same crazyness, still here. Promise. Same friends, same loves, same "hates". It's all here. I might say there are some things that I want differently but I'm still working on myself. I can't wait to see you all, 5oish days now. Time has flown by and I want it to keep flying. The next time I blink, it'll be May 15. So let's close our eyes together and before you know it, I'll be home, for good :)

Thanks for reading :)
I love you!